Welcome to the bell bridge
This is my new blog, a space that’s a live journal for me to live more in the design or function of who I am. I am a 3/5 Generator in Human Design and the ‘point’ of my energy is to go out into life full throttle, optimistically saying yes to what lights me up and try it for the purpose of learning and to share with others the experience of living fully. My mission in this lifetime has been to unblock layers of programming that have kept me from expressing my authentic voice, reactions and truth.
I’m vigilant about accountability, especially for myself. And now it’s time for me to share my experiences, the trial and error of what haps with you here.
I decided to call my blog the Bell Bridge because I keep on hearing bells when I go to special places that have a higher energy to them. It started with ringing in my ears about 13 years ago. After so many hearing tests and paranoia, I’ve realized that a good sense of hearing beyond is part of my gifts. I’m just remembering now, when I was diagnosed with cancer, they had me do a ton of tests. I remember I had to get my hearing tested twice because they couldn’t believe how good my hearing was. I suppose now I can see that different aspects of me were truly coming online during that experience. The Bell Bridge helps us to cross a bridge (that looks like a rainbow) from one aspect of ourselves to another. These words have healing ability to help awaken and remind you of different aspects of your GRAND ESSENCE! And when you read these words, from start to finish, you heal and open up to inspiration for yourself.
I share from inspiration. That’s why this feels like you’re reading something as I’m talking, I don’t plan for things to come through anymore. It’s channeling, some might eye roll, but it comes out of me in ten minutes, just like my meditations. I don’t plan, I just tap in. With HyFi and sharing my journey of evolution and awakening, my spirit is excited to share and so there is a lot of free flowing vibes that are coming through me with the purpose of inspiring you to share your gifts, become more activated as a person and learn to have the courage to drudge through the sh*t baggage you’ve been given and get grooving with yourself.
Last night, I had a dream that I was babysitting two kids, boys, a toddler around 3 and a like 10 month old. In the dream the boys belonged to my friend Grant, who actually doesn’t have boys. But the dream was very vivid and I was with them in a car. When I looked up the dream significance of baby boy dreams it talks about how baby boys represent divine masculine energy in it’s purity and the part that struck me most was this:
”The baby boy in your dream is like a voice that is telling you that no matter how much pain we go through in life we can heal it. Over the course of our lives, we have all been taught to associate massive pain with inconsistency, and pleasure with consistency.” -Aunty Flo
The reason it hit home for me so much is because I’ve recently been releasing a big fear that’s been keeping me blocked. The fear is that if I get busier and as I get more well known, I won’t have time to take care of myself the way I do now, I won’t be able to nurture my creativity or have the space to come up with new ideas or spend downtime with Jon A or travel on a whim. This is a massive block for me! And I see that this realizations is not true because of something I said last night at a women’s circle, “I’m already really busy and I make time for all those things.”
I suppose I was right, and that this dream brought into connection that subconscious belief leaving me. In the quote from Aunty Flo, which I totally recommend as a dream dictionary reference, where she says that we have all been taught to associate massive pain with inconsistency and pleasure with consistency… For me, not having enought time is associated with pain, having to rush is the main thing that doesn’t work for me. That’s why I’ve taken on practices for my own self care like working 1:1 with a personal trainer, because I need to do things on my own time. If I am rushed, I get so frazzled and it puts me into a mind state of not enough. I am constantly reminding myself that I can take as long as I need.
So, if my fear was about the inconsistency coming in, it’s really the unknown and fear of pain, fear of being pressurized by the outside world. But, I can feel it, it doesn’t feel so bad anymore. I’m ready to say yes to growth and trust that even if I am super busy managing, I’ll always make time to nurture my spirit.
Thank you spirit for the dreams! Thank you my friend for reading this! And I am so grateful to be alive to dream and integrate the shifts going on in my own consciousness and the consciousness of the collective. This is a time for great shifts and we’re all going through them, what is a significant dream you’ve experienced lately? What did you find it was helping you to integrate in your waking life?
